Good Riddens April

I'm so glad I only see you once a year because you really pissed me off this year!

A little tid bit about Mrs. A (that's me-wink wink).....I used to cry a lot. And when I say used to, I mean, before I met my husband. I don't know why I would cry a lot, I always thought I was just a very emotional person. When I look back, I don't think that's the reason, I think I was just unhappy or uncertain about my life at that time.

When I met my husband, everything seemed so amazing that I had no reason to cry and well, I haven't cried much since meeting him. The reasons I've cried since meeting him include: *we were doing a long distance relationship for the first 4 months of our relationship so I missed him *when he almost didn't move to NY *when I watch movies or tv shows, I cry over the silliest stuff ....so, these are the only reasons I can think of.

Well, Wednesday, April 28th, I cried....and it wasn't for any of the reasons I listed above.

We have been house hunting since Mid January. To be completely honest, I thought it was going to be so fun, (I watch House Hunters....I know, stuff on TV is not true reality) exciting, etc. All the joys a new home can bring just made me believe that we would find one fast. And how incredible the housing market is for homebuyers right now also gave me false hope. We wanted the Tax Credit....who wouldn't? A "free" $8000 for buying a home...CHA-CHING! Yeah...it ends TODAY and well, we do not have a signed contract.

To make along story short....we have an offer on a Short Sale and have since Feb. 9th. We've been looking since but still holding out hope for that house. I love it! We found one in Paradise Valley that we loved on Tuesday night. It was an older home, needed some work but nothing major that would break the bank or drives us to go batshit crazy. We put the offer in 7am Wednesday morning....by 11am, we found out that they had an accepted offer from Tuesday night and they never updated the information online so we didn't know.........

I cried....and cried.....and cried a little more. lol

I told myself not to get emotionally attached to this house as a good chance of a higher bidder or cash offer were likely. I couldn't help it... the tears...they just started flowing and wouldn't stop for a good 15 minutes.

Not only was it the house but I also started my period. This concludes 5 active months of TTC with no luck and add 2 months of "just seeing what happens." So, a total of 7 months with no BFP (Big Fat Positive).

Needless to say, I'm SO happy to kick April out and start fresh in May! We will plan to go see Dr's to get us tested in hopes of finding us both fertile and ok with the timing part being the issue.

Surprisingly, I'm still very optimistic. Does that surprise you? Because it surprises me....I don't know why I am. I pray every night for the strength to get through this hard time and for the Lord to provide us with a healthy child when He knows we are ready. I only wish I knew when that time was going to happen.

God, give us grace to accept with serenitythe things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the thingswhich should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguishthe one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

House hunting is NO longer fun

So, we started House Hunting in mid January. We've looked at probably 25 houses. Found one we loved, put an offer in (it's a Short Sale) on Feb. 9th. We knew the issues with Short Sales...they are everything BUT short.

We stopped looking...the selling agent was working really hard for us. The bank (Bank of America) reviewed the offer on March 19th. We were told that if it was a "no", we'd hear right away. Well, we didn't hear anything. It's now April 6th and we still haven't heard anything.

So, we looked at another house today. It was basically all brand new inside the house. It was nice but had many con's to it....

• neighborhood didn't feel like one...it seemed like the houses were condo's
• the kitchen was smaller than our apt. kitchen and that's tiny
• the "living room" def. wouldn't have fit our furniture
  
• and that extra front room...I hate them. It's wasted space to me.

The pro's were:

• brand new appliances in kitchen-never been used
• granite countertops
• new carpeting and paint
• loved the double doors into the master

BUT and there's always a but....it didn't feel like a "home" to us. It just felt like a place we could live in for a few years. Throw some kids into the mix and it'd be a tight squeeze.

It looks as if we'll be missing the $8000 tax credit which is up by the end of this month if you do not sign a contract by then. As much as we'd LOVE that money and how much easier it'd be to get the things we need with that money...we will not settle on a house just for the extra cash. I know that if we did that, I'd regret it and hate our house within less than a year. I don't want that.

So, here we are, waiting for the bank to say "yes" to the offer so we can move on with this process and stop stressing. We want out of our apt. living and all the scum around us who don't care about others except themselves.

We will wait.....
We will hope that once the tax credit is over, the prices of houses with plummet a little more like our Realtor said they would since less people will be buying.
We will pray.....
We will be optimistic....
We will let "what's supposed to happen, happen"
We will love the decisions we end up making.....
WE WILL OWN A HOME THIS YEAR!