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Friday, April 30, 2010

Good Riddens April

I'm so glad I only see you once a year because you really pissed me off this year!

A little tid bit about Mrs. A (that's me-wink wink).....I used to cry a lot. And when I say used to, I mean, before I met my husband. I don't know why I would cry a lot, I always thought I was just a very emotional person. When I look back, I don't think that's the reason, I think I was just unhappy or uncertain about my life at that time.

When I met my husband, everything seemed so amazing that I had no reason to cry and well, I haven't cried much since meeting him. The reasons I've cried since meeting him include: *we were doing a long distance relationship for the first 4 months of our relationship so I missed him *when he almost didn't move to NY *when I watch movies or tv shows, I cry over the silliest stuff, these are the only reasons I can think of.

Well, Wednesday, April 28th, I cried....and it wasn't for any of the reasons I listed above.

We have been house hunting since Mid January. To be completely honest, I thought it was going to be so fun, (I watch House Hunters....I know, stuff on TV is not true reality) exciting, etc. All the joys a new home can bring just made me believe that we would find one fast. And how incredible the housing market is for homebuyers right now also gave me false hope. We wanted the Tax Credit....who wouldn't? A "free" $8000 for buying a home...CHA-CHING! ends TODAY and well, we do not have a signed contract.

To make along story short....we have an offer on a Short Sale and have since Feb. 9th. We've been looking since but still holding out hope for that house. I love it! We found one in Paradise Valley that we loved on Tuesday night. It was an older home, needed some work but nothing major that would break the bank or drives us to go batshit crazy. We put the offer in 7am Wednesday 11am, we found out that they had an accepted offer from Tuesday night and they never updated the information online so we didn't know.........

I cried....and cried.....and cried a little more. lol

I told myself not to get emotionally attached to this house as a good chance of a higher bidder or cash offer were likely. I couldn't help it... the tears...they just started flowing and wouldn't stop for a good 15 minutes.

Not only was it the house but I also started my period. This concludes 5 active months of TTC with no luck and add 2 months of "just seeing what happens." So, a total of 7 months with no BFP (Big Fat Positive).

Needless to say, I'm SO happy to kick April out and start fresh in May! We will plan to go see Dr's to get us tested in hopes of finding us both fertile and ok with the timing part being the issue.

Surprisingly, I'm still very optimistic. Does that surprise you? Because it surprises me....I don't know why I am. I pray every night for the strength to get through this hard time and for the Lord to provide us with a healthy child when He knows we are ready. I only wish I knew when that time was going to happen.

God, give us grace to accept with serenitythe things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the thingswhich should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguishthe one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.



  1. Aw Stacy! I know April has been a lousy month, but I know good things will happen for you guys. It is so great that you are able to remain optimistic! You and Chris are in my T & P!

  2. I'm sorry to hear about all your disappointments this month. :( Just a couple of things - I thought I heard they were extending the home buyers tax credit. I could be wrong, but I feel like they keep doing this...keeping deadlines up to encourage people to buy, but then extending the deadline. Also, we're not TTC, but I have read some of the Nest and Bump boards and I thought the general consensus was that Dr.'s don't recommend tests until you've had a full year of trying without conceiving. Hang in there, girl. Your time will come.

  3. Girlie I'm sorry.

    Everything will happen when it's time. I know we looked at about 45 houses and the one we finally got closing got moved like 3 times and then the lady at the bank got sick and they did our paperwork late and then we ended up getting an interest rate that was 6.5 instead of 5.99 and we had to pay closing costs which were supposed to be included in the was a nightmare and I cried a lot!!!

    The baby will come...maybe it's just waiting for the house and things to get settled or maybe it's waiting for your anniversary fun :)

    GL on the doctors and keep us informed.

    It will happen for you on both ends...I have faith!

  4. Stace,
    You deserve a baby more than anyone else I know. When the time comes, and it will, you will be the most amazing mother. I believe everything happens for a reason, stay postive. As always, you and Chris are in my thoughts and prayers.

  5. Thanks girls!!! It's really hard seeing others get pregnant super easy when that's all I want. I can't wait for the day when I can grow our little baby inside of me and imagine the joy that child will bring to us!

    Thanks Lacey! :-)

  6. Aw man! I'm sorry sister! I've been thinking about you!